Friday, January 30, 2009

Dichotomy

This commercial always makes me smile. For obvious reasons, it makes me think about Dylan. It elicits a kind of bittersweet emotion though. On one hand, I think proudly that Dylan would've probably been "that guy". The one all the girls have a crush on and want to hang out with (just like his daddy, of course)!

On the other hand, I start wondering what Dylan would be like as a teenager. And my world is re-shattered by the fact that he will never be a teenager, never learn how to drive a car or take a girl to prom. For me, one of the most difficult things to mourn are the memories Dylan will never get to make, the things that Dylan will never get to do.

It's a wonder how something (like this commercial) can be both heart-warming and heart-breaking at the same time. It's similar to that simultaneous pride and longing that I feel when I look at pictures of Dylan. I miss Dylan dearly, yet I'm also reassured by the fact that he's no longer suffering or in pain and that he's healed and whole in Heaven.

1 comment:

Carly Marie said...

Dearest Kat,

Thank you so much for sending me your love through a comment on my blog.

I would love to write sweet Dylan's name in the sand for you. No pressure of course. Know that you don't have to have the photo up on the site. I can just email it to you if you would prefer that.

My email address is carly@namesinthesand.net

With so much love to you,

Carly x