Thursday, January 13, 2011

A Tree and a Rabbit Hole

I just want to give a quick thanks to The Wishing Tree blog for adding Dylan and to Holly for introducing me to the blog. You can check out Dylan's name on the tree here. Or feel free to have your own angel(s) added to the tree:

AngelWishTree button

What a neat idea! I bet that tree is both awe-inspiring and gut-wrenching at the same time.


I just happened to be up late last night watching one of the late night talk shows, and they were interviewing Sandra Oh (from Grey's Anatomy). I'm not usually up this late, but I had a difficult time falling asleep or maybe I just needed to see her talk about the new movie she's in. It's called "Rabbit Hole". [Here's the blurb from IMDB: Life for a happy couple is turned upside down after their young son dies in an accident. Based on a play by David Lindsay-Abaire.] Here's the trailer:

"Does it ever go away?"
"No, but sometimes it becomes bearable."

I feel like I just had that conversation. It looks like a really good movie, and even if it isn't, props to the actors and actresses and producers and directors who "went there" and took on such a project. Alot of us know firsthand just how taboo babyloss and childloss topics are and to make a feature film out of it (even an indie film) . . . props, just props to you.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Be Kind 2011

It's better, you know, being without our son. Yes, it still sucks not to have him here. Yes, I still find myself caught off-guard by the sudden on-set of tears sometimes. But, it's better. It's not like in the first few days when I couldn't find a reason to get out of bed. It's not like that at all.

I just finished a Year In Review post for my daughter's blog, and the dichotomy in my heart is ever-present. I see how much she's grown in the past year, both physically and developmentally, and yet there's that unrelenting curiosity that my brain just has to visit: what would Dylan be like now? What are 2 1/2 year-olds into? It sucks that I don't know because I should. But these are the cards that we've been dealt. We're very hopeful for the New Year though, that our hearts will continue to be on the mend. Very hopeful that the missing never goes away but that it never becomes paralyzing again either (not only for our daughter's sake, but for Dylan's sake as well).

Anywho, to ring in the New Year as we did last year, we made our requisite donation to the children's hospital:I hope that 2011 is kind to you as well. I hope that those waiting on their "rainbows" have all their heart's desires met. And I hope that those still working on mending their broken hearts find some sort of peace and joy in this coming year.

I never got around to posting our Christmas Card this year, but here it is (had to include Dylan, of course ;)And finally (since this post is already so random to begin with), I never got around to thanking sweet, sweet Carly for sending along this beautiful picture of Christian's beach. She told me, "I was thinking of Dylan when I drew this latest butterfly :)" THANKS SO MUCH CARLY!